this is your life

I…don’t feel right lately. Funky. When I think about feeling unwell, I recall a conversation I had with one of my clients a few weeks ago. She asked why we don’t feel right sometimes, why we get sick.

I had to think about answering that question. I suppose it’s something I haven’t often had to put into words; when you don’t feel right, you don’t feel right. It’s hard to explain it to someone, because every body feels a different sickness and sometimes it’s hard to describe. My stomach hurts, I have a headache, my chest is pounding, I’m shaking. There are so many ailments that until we feel them, we can’t understand really how they feel.

Thinking of ways to simplify an explanation, I said to my client, “Our bodies are very complex. Think about everything that goes into making your body work: all of the pumping, the flowing, the beating and digesting. All of the nerves and cells and brainwaves. All of your systems are working in harmony to make you live—and if one thing in your body isn’t on track—even one little thing—you won’t feel right. So with everything going on in your body, it’s only natural for things to sometimes go wrong.”

“Oh.”

_ _ _ _ _ _ _

I’m still at school, feeling that there’s something that needs to be done (there isn’t). Tomorrow I have a review with a committee for my BFA year — I’m hoping good things will come out of it, but expecting a wake-up call…

Finally, I want to finish with this beautiful manifesto that my aunt Kelly posted today. As I read through it every word rang true, and it was comforting. Being that I just quit a job I didn’t like, I’m consistently searching for happiness, I’m itching to travel, and I truly want to open myself up to new things…this is beautiful. Thank you, Kelly!