good + bad = goodbad

THE LAST 24 HOURS have been genuinely draining. I suppose the weekend in general was bittersweet — there were many realizations and frustrations. 
My good friend Benjamin was in town from Minneapolis and we had a really brief but lovely time. We had lunch at my favorite Drunken Noodle in downtown Fargo and did a bit of gallivanting about town, including a stop at a comic book store! (It was like a whole different world!)

Ben is very talented young man, and during his visit he informed me that he was selected as the student speaker for his upcoming college graduation from MCAD! I am thrilled for him and wishing I could make it to the ceremony (his speech is going to be quite hilarious).

The frustrating part of the weekend comes with work. I really wish I could find the motivation within me to create, and earn a profitable income from creating — so much that I wouldn’t have to work any other job(s). That would be my dream, to just create and have flexibility with life. I feel that I have the ability to do so, it’s only a matter of the funk I’ve been in for a while that’s been keeping me from getting started…

I know that I just need to start. (Please pardon me if this is turning into a pep talk.) The other night I was sitting at home working on a paper, and the thought crossed my mind, “I should go to the gym.” I have this thought a lot — probably two or three times a day, every day — but for the last year, I’ve never acted on it. So I set my laptop down, got up from my chair and I went to the gym. It blew my mind. It felt so good. I felt so good! The whole time I’d wanted to exercise, the whole time I’d known that exercising would feel incredible, and yet I never pursued it; I’m a stubborn creature. It makes me wonder about the other things that consistently cross my mind, the things that I think of but never act on (the things I’m PASSIVE about, to put it bluntly. I dislike the word ‘passive’ so I avoid it…) and there are many of them.

Okay, enough, done. But seriously, if you’ve never been a comic book store, GO! Great people watching. Good conversation. A nerd’s oasis.

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