This is about where I’m at right now.
Author: approximately
Engine Overload
TALK ABOUT A ROUGH WEEK, I can hardly walk out the door standing up. It’s been tough, I’ve had bad luck, my mind is tethered. I’d hate to spread the despair but I’m not kidding, I’m so sorely stuck in this rut,
I can’t get up.
And mattering most is the slow coast toward serenity. The day it all pays off. The cumulation of energy gifted to success attempts, where time and effort parallel progress. I’m positively stalled.
“You don’t realize how buried you are until you start digging yourself out and you’re still buried. You just keep going and take it a day at a time.”
—Jim, hoarder from TLC’s Hoarders: Buried Alive
In some ways, I was well then
In many ways, I am better now
In all ways I miss the way it was.
Meltdown. Coming.
Fast.
The best way out
is always through.
(Robert Frost)
A year ago today I was on a transatlantic flight, about to embark on the most beautiful two months of my life.
And I miss it every day.
True, true, and true!
The Longest Rain in March
YOU ARE LONG. I don’t care where you came from or how you made it to this day, you’re the most significant abbreviation of living. It’s like clear water, the catch-them-all, the longest rain in March. I can see us sitting at a picnic table someday, in, say, late July, sticking and chipping paint from the wood, enjoying. We’ll be.
I don’t know where we’ll start, but we won’t end. Together we’ll become dehydrated, turn around and lost, sparks shelling from our darnd’est moments. We’ll be night watchers, hitchhikers, safety and danger and later, dancing on the floor in laughter. (It will be beautiful, too.)
I don’t care where you are or how you got there. There’s twelve months a year and I’ve yet to find a time in my mind more fragile or well-spent. I don’t care if you’re like blue or smell stained, I don’t care if you’ve lost or you’re smooth or chipped or taken. We’ve been dehydrated and that’s that—and you cannot take away that thirst.
You, the longest rain in March, fall in sheets, so long
and so slow.
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