Crooked

It’s long, daybreak past noon
I watch you scatter your steps over
trellis, tremor, time.
Today
I see the way
the clutter
of a crooked calendar, crooked body lain
on a crooked bed,
words
strewn crookedly and crumbling
through crooked
fingers.
Crooked faces
waiting for crooked games
serpentine ways in fields green and lost.

Ten thousand words swarm around my head
Ten million more in books written beneath my bed
I wrote or read them all when searching in the swarms
Still can’t find out how to hold my hands

I want to relay that, on this Christmas Eve in the morning…

– I slept in until 11, then had lunch

– My mother microwaved me a cup of Tang and bestowed upon me a sweet slice of yulekaka (which I initially said, “Hey Mom, is that yulegaga?” Clearly I’ve been listening to too much Gaga.)

– I’ve come to realization that my hair has ascended to the adherent powers of Velcro, and that in fact, it might possibly be Velcro.

– My brother is playing live video games and speaking with someone over a headset, someone who’s mother is undoubtedly concerned that their son, too, is playing Call of Duty on Christmas Eve morning. And I’m laughing, because I could never truly understand the allure of it all, and I long for the days when he’d sit around in a full diaper and play with his trains.

Ridiculous. Merry Christmas Eve!