Brother Ryan’s surprise I found in the snow this afternoon…his hunting quarry. Classy…no wait, CLASSIC.

Mom and Heidi doing what we almost never do*…go to Starbucks
*We always go to Starbucks.

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Back in Moorhead after a lovely jaunt to Minot for the holiday! These next few weeks are going to be out of control, but I think I’ve prepared myself mentally to make it all happen. Nose back to the grindstone tomorrow…ew ew ew ew ewwww.

"Happy Saintsgiving!"

…was always the phrase heard around the house, in the days when family would come in droves for a hearty meal, laughs and plenty of ping-poing. This year’s gathering was a fairly quiet, albeit very nice Thanksgiving celebration with grandmas, pickled herring, trimmings, tea, pie, [me passing out on the couch for several hours]. and a hefty game of Balderdash.

Backing up: I jumped on the train at roughly 4 a.m. and arrived in Minot just after 9:30 this morn. Every seat was full with college students (with the same travel dilemma as me) and families on their way to their respective turkey get-togethers. The vibe was largely anticipatory and I was happy to see Mom, grab coffee, and go home to shower.
So what’s changed? For one, there is a significant thing missing from home: Willow. I mentioned that our faithful canine passed on in September, and while her death came as no surprise, it was and still is sad. In her vibrant years she’d come running—barking—to the door when I came home from school. As she aged and grew tired, the greeting came slower—but she was still there to say hello. Now that she’s gone, there’s only a feeling to latch on to at the door: the void of a bark, something to pet, someone to lick your face unconditionally. In a word, it’s weird.
Otherwise there are little home improvements here and there, new beds and bed-swapping (my 24 year old brother decided it was time to move on from the twin bed he’d been sleeping in since 1998) and of course, the perpetual practice of forcing myself out of “my room” (which no longer feels like my room). Brothers seem to have new facial hair and/or bellies garnered from college and office life, Dad’s little projects are sprawled about, and there seems to be a TV or two that I don’t quite recognize (must have been elves that brought them).
Tomorrow brings a day of leftovers and good friends. It’s my only full day here, so I hope to rise early to the occasion…

Schedule Derailed, on to Plan Numero B

I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN TODAY WAS GOING TO GO AWRY when I got a nosebleed in the shower. After that I got called into work early, crazed Thanksgiving shoppers seeking cranberries, lefse and frozen pizzas kept me at my register until 4:45, and AS WEATHER WOULD HAVE IT, roads are yucky. I’m taking no chances driving to Motherland this evening as planned.

I opted out of staying here alone and eating Pizza Patrol in place of the whole Thanksgiving spread (though PP is always tempting), and instead garnered a ticket to ride the rails. I’m jumping on the friendly, stinky and ever-wandering Amtrak early tomorrow (like 3:30 am early) to make my way north+west. The train may take a little longer, but it’s guaranteed excitement. For example, the only thing exciting about driving by yourself is singing REALLY LOUD and off key for four hours. Which gets boring. With Amtrak you’re guaranteed a complete assault of every sense: the smell of various, questionable body odors (just try not to think about it), crying children, itchy seats, everyones crazy uncles and snoring senior citizens—all the spices of life, crammed together in a mobile frenzy.
So I’ll make it to Turkey day tomorrow with family Christen after all—but not before dealing with a few characters along the way. On the bright side, I don’t have to go through a full body scanner…
xo
j

Toward the Future

IT IS LIKELY THAT EVERYONE has seen a sunrise at least a dozen times in their life. I’ve seen many while walking out from sleepless nights of homework, or staying up late enough to forget it’s becoming morning.
C sent me this video the other day, taken while on an eastward flight from San Francisco to spend Thanksgiving in NYC. The video is only 1:23 long, yet long enough to see the sun surface. It’s nothing special, but when you think of everything that happens in a day—functions, interactions, plans, communication, patterns, growth, breathing—the one factor that sustains everything, our sun, takes just under 2:00 to present itself to the world and make life possible. And it does, every day, regardless of what the world throws at it.
An arbitrary thought, but if the sun does that in two minutes, I begin to wonder what I can achieve in a lifetime.

Everything, all white

Woke up this morning to snow — tons of snow! It’s been long overdue so it’s not disappointing. It took me about a half hour to dig out my car and get rolling. And in the event that I get stuck, there are plenty of neighbor dudes to push me…(as a last resort).

I’m exhausted, just finished working a closing shift and back for more over the next few days. Thanksgiving shoppers have got me wiped from all the turkey-lifting I’ve been doing. My back has been sore as of late and I need to see a chiropractor (I never have, but I’ve heard they work wonders). I’m looking forward to (hopefully) going home and seeing family…fingers crossed the weather cooperates.

Speaking of work, I’m soon starting (another) job as a direct care provider. I’m meeting with my supervisor to learn about my clients and will soon meet them and begin training! I’m really excited to have something to mix things up a little in my life. I’m doing my best to stay busy and positive, even if it means being a full time student and juggling three jobs. Busy is good!
Tomorrow is another long, long day of school, meetings, and work. I’ve got to wrap things up before the holiday break, or at least get them to a place where I’m comfortable leaving them for a few days…
Tonight I’m going home and straight to bed—and I never do that.
xo
j

Of Holly

I MET HOLLY IN AUGUST 2006 when we were “randomly” assigned to be roommates in the freshman dorms. I found her to be beautiful, curious and delightful. Over the years we’ve learned through one another our strengths and downfalls. We’ve laughed so hard through sunshine and cried together on tough days.
Over the past five years, she’s been my confidant, long-lost sister, and comic relief. I can’t picture our dorm rooms without her cereal bowls scattered about, procrastinating nights without the pizza and impersonations, roadtrips, sleepovers, her consoling words or hugs when I needed them. I can’t imagine college without Holly—college wouldn’t be college without Holly. She has built me up as a person and a friend and made my life so, so wondrous. She has changed my life!
In August 2006 I was “randomly” assigned a best friend, who will be with me until we’re gray and golden, through grandchildren and good times. Holly is forever my friend and sunshine on my soul.