I feel that today is just as good as any to make a small (or big) announcement. Things have drastically changed in my life over the past six days, and they are going to continue to change as I move forward. In two weeks I’ll be moving to New York to fulfill an internship. A month ago I couldn’t have imagined this would be the direction my life was to go!
I am at once: terrified, excited, and curious. I have become so comfortable with this easy-breezy wide-open Midwest lifestyle that I foresee a mild case of culture shock. I can’t imagine what my mind and eyes are about to be filled with, the paths I’m going to cross and the people that might affect my life. I have no great way of describing it.
Throughout the past few months, there have been several quotes taped to my wall. One read, “All in good time,” that reminded me that good things come with patience, and that this period in my life is not my life forever. When I needed to reassure myself that stress does not control my life and things always work out, I’d recite “Slow down, calm down, don’t worry, don’t hurry, trust the process.” Eleanor Roosevelt’s saying, “The purpose of life is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience” has always held a place in my mind. But perhaps the most meaningful words toward my life:
“Be not the slave of your own past; plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with new self-respect, with new power, and with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old.” —Ralph Waldo Emerson
Today I packed up every possession into my car. I don’t live here anymore. I will never understand why I stayed around these parts for so long, but trust that the future will reveal the purpose to every decision I’ve made in this place. I am thankful in so many ways that life has lead me here, to the people that have changed me. Now I am thankful that circumstances are leading me to new experiences. I have grown tired of thinking I’m not capable of doing great things, because I know I have what it takes to do what it takes to make happiness. I’ve doubted myself for too long!
The world is waiting, and I’m coming. The feeling is like perching on a tree’s limb, high in the air, dangling your legs and waiting to jump to the ground, feel the momentum, and run for it. Here goes.