It’s the "I’m Alive: Consumed by School" Edition!

I’VE (CLEARLY) BEEN SLACKING HARD IN THE BLOG WORLD. Why, you ask? I haven’t been off gallivanting throughout the country, or leisurely strolling along beaches. I’ve been in my garage/studio…cozying by the warmth of a fake electric fire, layered to the nines, and working my cold little fingers to finish what I started…my B.F.A. project.

Now, I’m a worrier. A big one. I’ve learned through lost time and energy that worrying gets you nowhere but, well, nowhere. So you can imagine what a RELIEF I’m feeling at the moment as the project that I’ve been worrying about since MAY (yes, May) has finally come to fruition and exists in physicality in the really real world (not just in my head). At times I was finding difficulty sleeping because the “to-do” list in my head would take over my mind!

Because the project is about consumption — or hyperconsumption, the excessive consumption that most employ in their lifestyles — it was quick to overwhelm and in a way, turn on me. The “simple” lifestyle that I insist upon became increasingly consumed by the collection of materials I’d accrued to get my message across. The project had done to me the very thing I wanted to bring awareness to others about: I had unreasonable amounts of resources at my disposal. I had to tell myself that at some point, all of my collecting would come together to make something transformed. Months later, I think I achieved what I set out to do.

While the project doesn’t go as in-depth as I would have liked (for sanity’s sake, you have to draw a line somewhere) I hope that the message and information presented is enough for viewers to desire to investigate further. I looked to Annie Leonard’s The Story of Stuff as a great source of information, inspiration and motivation for the project. Check it out at your local library and you will be amazed. It is tragic and fascinating how our systems operate, how our goods are made, and who is affected by what we buy and use. The stories and figures presented will make you think twice about what you buy — which, really, is what we should begin to do.

I’d invite you all to visit the gallery at MSUM’s Center for the Arts between today and 18 Nov to see the work of my fellow graphic designers and myself. We have all poured our days into making this show happen and the dedication shines through.

A little sneak peak for you:

Lastly, when I installed the project the other day, I told an onlooking professor that it was “just a little something that I whipped together over the weekend.” When he asked what I’d been doing with all my time, I told him “sleeping and eating my feelings.” (Which isn’t what I’ve been doing at all, but I decided it’s what I’m going to do now that I’m done with what I did.)

Take care everyone. Life feels good.

xo
j

hey hey halloween!

Paul, Brookelle (one of my lovely roommates) and I carved pumpkins last night! It was something I’d been looking forward to since the beginning of fall. When I sat down to carve, I drew a blank and carved the first thing to come to mind…

Happy End-of-October! I am spending more hours in studio than I would like, but I’ve just got to hang on another eight days…!!!
Love to you—
j

**SPECIAL DAY ALERT (PART II)**

I HAVE BEEN KEEPING AS BUSY AS POSSIBLE LATELY. Feeling the crunch big time. But good news should never go unnoticed, and this past weekend there was good news to be had.
As if my older sister and her husband Matt welcoming Baby Scout to the family last month wasn’t enough excitement for one year (I still can’t get over how darn cute he is and I haven’t even seen him in real life yet) more happy news came along. My younger sister Heidi and her boyfriend Paul became engaged on Saturday! Wow. I had known about the engagement for about a month but had to keep it a close secret. Heidi was surprised when Paul rolled unannounced into Fargo from Minneapolis, showed up at her house and popped the question. I can breathe in relief that I don’t have to keep the secret from her any longer!
In addition to being my sister, Heidi is one of my best friends. I am so happy she found someone that will treat her the way she deserves. Paul is a special guy and I am happy to see him become part of my family!
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If bad news comes in threes, I am hoping that good news does as well. In which case…more good things are on their way!
Congratulations. I love you two.

xo
j

for shiloh.

I’VE POSTED MANY PHOTOS OF SHILOH in the past, but he is the most accessible subject to me and I just love his demeanor. He is always waiting by the door when I come home, nearby when I need something to talk to, and ready to crawl into bed when I do. I always look forward to walks and talks and companionship in general. He is always happy and he makes me feel happy, too. 
Thanks Shiloh. You’re not mine, but I’m sure glad you’re around! (PS. Unless you read…you’ll never read this.)
xo
j

at buffalo river

Yesterday Paul, Shiloh and I visited Buffalo River State Park, just north of Moorhead. It was a little windy, but such a relief to walk for miles without seeing a car, building, or any sight other than nature. A great way to decompress after another week of school.

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xo
j

the whole love

Today I bought Wilco’s newest album, The Whole Love

Wilco always takes me back to early college days, long drives, summer afternoons and evenings, windows down just…living.
This album is no exception, except it is now — and it is going to remind me of these days, right before the college chapter closes and I begin again…
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Also, I saw this guy today. Made me smile.


xo
j
I am in love with these fall days — dreaming of the perpetual state of autumn.
01 :: Cute building spotted during late afternoon stroll, Moorhead
02 :: Side of our garage (my studio!) + fall colors
03 :: Spent all afternoon working on Project BFA, namely 3D type I’m preparing

Enjoy these days, they are so very numbered —
xo
j

I took this photo while sitting in the park this afternoon. Stress is setting in a little and I’m trying to decompress and enjoy the fall.

Tomorrow I have my 30-day evaluation with my project committee. I’m hoping they have positive things to say about what I’ve done so far, but I’m preparing for a reality check. I haven’t been working and focusing nearly as much as I should, and I need to seriously buckle down for the next month and make greatness.

Fingers crossed I can make it work!

quite the distance

When I see this picture — taken today — I feel as though I can look straight past 15 years and see myself at eight years old again. I can imagine what I’d be wearing and how greasy my hair was and how my voice sounded. I remember what I looked forward to then — recess and running around the neighborhood, building forts and reading Goosebumps books. I remember who I looked up to then: my family, my older sister, my second grade teacher, my next door neighbor. 
Yet it is so hard to believe that I am the same person. I was eating dinner at home last night and had this strange moment where I wondered, “How did I get to this moment?” Trying to backtrack through each year and decision that lead me to last night, eating my spaghetti at a house in Moorhead while typing a paper. I remembered at eight years old I never bought my own groceries, paid my bills or had a real agenda past school getting out at 2:45, now I have all these amendments and appendages to my life. I guess it was just a moment of awareness, a realization that while I feel stuck in these past few years, I’ve actually come quite the distance.
But isn’t this the common thread of each day? To look back at those days before it?